My life as a marathon

The holidays have been hectic, and so time consuming, but I don't regret a single moment of it. This has been my year of blessing, and as I am on the verge of graduating, I want to prepare myself mentally, emotionally, and physically for what the world holds for me out there.

I had a welcoming family gathering on Christmas day, and while I didn't get to spend as much time with Alex as I wanted to, it made me remember how much I love him. I went out to different clubs with friends and it was such a reunion in so many different ways. Of course, you can't please everyone, and I didn't truly see every single person I wanted, it was more than enough to keep me busy for a straight week.

Secret Santa with friends. Secret Santa with coworkers. White elephant with family. So many wonderful gifts from Alex and his family! I feel so spoiled, and I'm so grateful for that.

Dave's potluck was fantastic. Joyous melodies, tons and tons of food, and good cheer. This was the reunion of my life. Absolutely everyone brought food, and it was real food, not some cheap store bought food. Everything was homemade and full of personal effort. Mark brought out his photo equipment and we had a mini photoshoot with all the friends. It's moments like these that make me remember just exactly who I am.

I bought my last pack of cigarettes today. Forever. I'm going to the gym with Alex in an hour so I can lose this holiday weight. I ate so much good food. I spent so much time with my beautiful niece. I never got to see Jaycie, but that's okay.

I get new year's eve off, and work late new years day. Things are definitely looking up for me this new year. I need to remember to maintain my composure, my convictions, and most of all, my passion and zeal for life. This is my moment and I want to reveal myself to the world.

Fahrenheit

In my last post, I touched on the fact that I don't feel as artistic or creative as others, but there is one thing that I absolutely love doing. I love cooking. I know many people feel the same way, but I absolutely adore presentation. Converting from an omnivore to a pescatarian is difficult. Whenever I buy vegetables, I have to make sure I either eat them quickly, or dispose of them when they go bad. You can't buy in bulk and expect not to eat more than usual.

Today I made some mini cheesecakes. I enjoy doing motherly things. I enjoy cleaning, and cooking, and taking care of people. I'm making tons of mini-cheesecakes but I'm definitely not going to eat them all. I think about 4-5 times a year, I bring some baked goods to work. I just like having people eat my food, and enjoying it. It's a way to make other people happy. I should refrain from eating it myself though.

Being with Alex, I'm learning to be a lot more frugal. This Christmas excluded, because I'm in the mood for giving. I have my creative streaks. I'm creative for the sake of others, but not for myself.

December already?

I have spent an inordinate amount of time NOT updating this. No one knows it exists yet, but that's okay. I'm working on it. There are so many things that have happened to update about, but I don't think I will. It's time to look forward. No more looking at the past, but the present, and what it can do for my future.

I just turned 23, and I just finished my Fall semester as a Senior in college. It is time to relax, and take my mind off of things.

Goals:
- Eat more vegetables. Way more vegetables. and lay off the cheese.
- Exercise. and Yoga.
- Meditate
- Listen to all those albums I have yet to listen to.
- Work on me

I have spent 11 of the last 12 months as a pescetarian. It's too difficult for me to give up on seafood, but I have given up on eating land animals. I'm even working on ridding my diet of dairy and even eggs. It's expensive, and I tend to run out of ideas, but I think I just haven't been thinking hard enough, or creatively about how to do this.

Creativity. I think that's the key.